An Intriguing Tale Of Being An Owner

Our life is pretty much back to normal, now that Chloe is feeling better. She can be cranky still.. but we’ve learnt to cope with it better.
And now that we have a new staff.. who seems to be working out really good… my hives has not appeared for days… *touch wood*..
Chloe is as active as ever and i think has learnt the meaning of “no” .. and stopped touching the things .. or maybe some.. of the things.. she shouldn’t be touching. She is also getting taller.. and aleady trying to reach for the things on the third shelf of the bookcase.
She is also not so needy today.. and let me go about doing a few of my own things, so that was great.
Her da-da woke up with her for her first morning feed at 4am.. and i woke up with her.. when she woke up at 8.30am.. so that her da-da can sleep in. He woke up at 11am.
Overall, Chloe’s screaming and cramps that we’ve experienced helped me realised how little patient i have .. and how much i will go thru’ for my daughter. And how much I learn everyday from this little angel of mine.

Chloe finally went back to her normal routine last nite.. she slept at 9pm.. didn’t fuss much.. and woke up at 6am .. this morning.. and gone straight to bed.. after 4 ozs of milk.. and woke up only at 9am. I am so happy…. because she slept..and wasn’t in any pain ..last nite.. and this morning. I didn’t really get alot of rest.. because i kept waking up every now and then..to check on Chloe.
And i decided that i cannot advocate the “training our baby to sleep” by babywise because i am made of tofu… kekekek..!! I felt so sad for the whole nite.. after i tried letting Chloe cry to sleep.. in the afternoon .. because she was so needy.
Today she did pretty well too.. maybe because both her da-da and I were with her the whole day.. since we didn’t open for business today… being sunday.
Also today we changed Chloe’s car seat to a regular one.. coz’ we have been using the portable one .. since she was born.. the one that you carry around… but she has outgrown it.
She seems to like the new carseat alot.. so we are very happy.
I hope Chloe sleep throughout the nite tonite too.. but if she doesn’t .. i am prepared to wake up with her.. and not force her to go back to sleep… but wait patiently for her to.

We brought Chloe into Emergency and Outpatient’s at Yarmouth Regional Hospital this morning at 6am.. when Chloe started her squirming and farting and this time it seems even worst .. she almost like went into a fit.. when i was trying to calm her down at 5.30am.. in the morning.
So i woke her da-da up..and he fetched us to the hospital.. there was no one there.. which was surprising.. being a saturday morning but i was elated.. because that meant … no waiting time for chloe.. so i thought. But how wrong i was.. *sigh*. The nurse saw chloe.. took down all the symptoms that we told her.. and took Chloe weight and temperature.. by the way she is 22 Ibs. She then told us that the doctor will only be able to see her at 9am.. it was 6am then.. F***KING UNBELIEVEABLE!!!!! Anyhow.. i told her we will come back at 9am then.
Came home.. Chloe’s da-da went back to bed.. while i fed chloe some milk.. hoping that she would go back to sleep.. she did sleep on me.. after taking 2 ozs of milk and while i burped her, she slept soundly on my shoulders.. but as soon as i put her down in her crib.. she woke up crying.. and finally she didn’t sleep anymore. I played with her for abit.. on the floor.. and at about 9am.. she acted sleepy again.. so i gave her more milk.. since she didn’t have much… once again.. i tried putting her in the crib.. and again.. she would wake up crying.. after trying a few times.. she finally went to bed.. i took this opportunity to quickly clean up her bottles.. and do dishes.. and put away dishes..and change all her towels.. and stuff.. and at 9.30am.. i laid down for a rest.. but i couldn’t really sleep.. because one side of the crib is not lifted up..and i daren’t try.. because i know it is gonna wake chloe up.. so i keep myself alert.. and rest my eye and my so tired body.. and 9.50am.. chloe woke up.. to play again.
I waited for abit.. for her da-da to wake up.. but i guess he must be tired.. so i decided to feed chloe with some oatmeal cereal.. even though i didn’t want to.. thinking that maybe .. it may be the cause of her farting and all. But Chloe was obviously hungry by 10.30am.. and gobbled down 2 tablespoons of cereal.. in a couple of minute.. no need coaxing.
Her da-da woke up at 10.55am.. a much needed rest .. he took. And got me breakfast from Macs. And i snapped at him when he was asking me questions.. because i was trying to eat my food.. as i was hungry as hell and wanted my coffee badly.
After my food.. i waited for my spouse to have his breakfast.. knowing how needy chloe can be.. and was kinda hoping.. to bring chloe back to outpatients when he is done breakfast.. and using the bathroom. It was almost 12pm then.. when he finished doing wat he needed to… and chloe was due for some more milk.. so i fed chloe with milk.. and sent her da-da to use the bathroom..so that we can head out to the hospital again.. if chloe doesn’t nap. Well she didn’t nap.. and i quickly went to brush my teeth.. and wash up.. for by now.. i look very much like a zombie.. plus my tooth was hurting me.. from not going for my root canal.
We went back to the hospital.. and after much explaining.. the nurse said to me. that the earliest the doctor could see chloe was an hour.. and there were ppl sniffing.. and looking sick.. so i didn’t want chloe to be in the hospital.. since chloe wasn’t really that kinda sick, for i didn’t want her to catch anything.. so we decided not to wait and see the doctor.. because it defeated the purpose already.. when we went at 6am.. and there was no F***king doctor!
Anyhow.. we went back to the store for abit.. and took chloe for a walk in the stroller hoping she would go down for a nap, but sleep was elusive for her today.
And i ended up sleeping only an hour .. after we came home.. because i had to eat.. and then went i tried to nap..i couldn’t F***king sleep… no matter how much i tried.. and didn’t sleep long.. because my spouse needed to be at work at 5pm.. so an hour later. i woke up.. even though my alarm hadn’t gone off yet. I am just way too.. saintlike..!! And i hate myself for that… and chloe had a fit this evening while my spouse was at work..and threw up and all.. and i felt the worst ever.. because i refuses to let chloe think she figured us out.
It’s 12.58am.. and i should be in bed.. but i had to log this down.. and eat before i sleep.. for i know if i don’t .. i will end up like last nite.. not sleeping till 2.30am.
Chloe has been in bed since 9pm.. hopefully she sleeps for another few more hours.. and let me rest just a little.. so that i can wake up..and be with her because i cannot advocate the crying training. So off to bed i go now.

I went to bed at 12.20am.. chloe is sleeping.. and i got up at 2am… to get a sandwich because i can’t seems to sleep… from the growling of my tummy.. and thinking of food..!!!
I could smack myself.. but wait.. i better go sleep now.. since i’ve eaten.

Wonder when these no sleep nite is gonna end..
I’m going bonkers… and in lots of anxiety… which is not good at all.
We didn’t go to the doctor’s .. because i can sense that my spouse wasn’t too keen in going .. seeing that chloe was getting better.. so we didn’t go.
We went to the mall instead.. and i thought we lost chloe’s bottle in the supermarket.. but in fact i didn’t even bring it in.. the way my spouse acted.. when i asked him.. if he had seen the milk bottle.. when we got into the car.. sent me into a frenzy.. not knowing whether it was better to go look for it.. or send him to look for it.. or just forget about the milk bottle…
I had wanted to forget it.. since my spouse acted so irritated.. but then he said.. don’t the milk bottle cost 5 bucks.. so i said.. ok.. i will go look for it.. and i went into the supermarket to every isle to search for it.. but i also started thinking hard.. if i did bring the bottle in.. or was it in the car still. I cannot remember. and my heart was beating so fast.. from worrying about making him wait so long in the car.. and with chloe.. don’t know if chloe was fussing or not..
I finally gave up.. went to information and left my name there in case .. someone turned it in. Went back to the car.. and true enough chloe was fussing.. time to have some milk i think. So we rushed home.. didn’t get to go to the pharmacy.. because i had spent more time than my spouse wanted on cheap clothes for chloe.. for the winter.
Anyhow we went home.. fed chloe.. fed ourselves.. it was about 4pm then.. and my spouse went to work at 5pm.
Chloe was alright .. till about 7.15pm.. when i said no to her.. about going near the heater.. knowing that winter is coming soon.. so gotta train her now.. so she don’t get hurt. She started crying.. and threw up all over me.. and i had to change her.. clean up the mess on the floor and chair.. and then brought her upstairs.. so that i can change.. and i raised my voice at chloe.. because she would sit in her playpen.. for a second for me to change. I changed quickly.. and brought her down.. and at 8 something my spouse came home to bring chloe and I to the pharmacy.. we bought chloe some gravol for kids.. and came home.. and fed her.. while my spouse went back to the store.. and close up.. since our new staff .. was still too new to close on her own. Chloe slept at 9.30pm to 10.05pm.. and woke up..and didn’t wanna go back to sleep.. just refuses.
Anyhow… while playing tonite.. she bumped her head against the leg of my chair.. and it sent her screaming.. and a huge bump near her left eye.. poor baby.
She finally went down to sleep at 12midnite.. and i’m constantly cleaning up. .making her milk. during all these time .. while her da-da stays with her.
Now time for bed.. hopefully… she sleeps till the morning. Oh God.. please let Chloe sleep till morning. at least till 7 – 8am.. please..!!
My spouse and I are so exhausted.. and my chest hurts from carrying chloe too much… i think anyway.. since it only hurts when i move my hands.

Chloe did sleep last nite.. from 9pm.. but woke up several times in between .. till about 9.30pm.. she slept right up to 2.30am.. and then didn’t wanna go back to bed.. and as usual.. squirmed.. and farted alot..and cried alot..
Her da-da brought her downstairs.. and dozed off snoring till the morning at 10.30am… UNBELIEVEABLE..!!
Poor da-da .. up with her the whole nite.. and chloe only went to bed at 4am.. and slept till 7am.. and woke up again.. and didn’t wanna go back to sleep.. usual farting and all.
Poor .. poor da-da.. I can’t believed he let me sleep in so late.. poor thing..
Now da-da is up napping for abit.. but we have a doctor’s appt at barrington for chloe at 2pm.. so we will have to leave at 1pm .. the latest.. so da-da is not gonna get much rest.. and have to drive and work tonite.. poor . .poor da-da..
When Chloe grows up.. she better know wat kinda torture she make us go thru’.. hahhaha!! And luckily we have jenn our store manager.. who made the appt for chloe for dr mikhail.. how she managed to get in today.. is just amazing.. !! So chloe .. when you grow up .. you better thank Jenn too..

Last nite was the worst nite ever .. with our baby chloe..
She puked twice before 1am.. and another time at about 2am.. and she would cry and cry and cry.. and wouldn’t go to bed..
It would almost seems like her tummy was sore .. that she cannot sleep on her tummy or her back.. she would be sound alseep on our shoulders.. but as soon as you put her down.. on her crib.. she starts crying..
We were at a lost on wat to do .. *sigh*.. her da-da and i took turns to be with her.. and finally we were so exhausted.. from her puking.. and fussiness from the whole day.. that i had her sleep on me .. on the sofa.. she finally did fall asleep on me.. but would wake up squirming every 15mins or so.. and i had to pat her to sleep again.. and this went on till about 8am in the morning..and she refuses to stay down on the sofa with me.. so i got up.. gave her some milk.. hoping she would sleep again …. just a little more.. but she didn’t .. so by 9am.. i went up.. propped onto the bed.. and woke her da-da up.. and told him.. i can’t take it anymore.
So da-da woke up.. and stayed up with her.. and i got some rest till 12.30pm.. thank god we didn’t have to be at work till 5pm.. but today… i ain’t bringing her to work.. and if i can help it .. i ain’t bringing her to the store .. for a long time.
Hopefully .. tonite will be a better nite for us.. it’s so tiriiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiig!!! I could kill to get a good nite sleep.

I wished i wasn’t so tired from looking after Chloe.. I love Chloe to death.. but it’s so exhausting.. looking after her 24hrs a day.. plus when she doesn’t wanna sleep at nite.. or wakes up wee hours in the morning.. and refuses to go back to sleep.. and puke a couple of times during the day.. and fusses in the store.. when we have to work.. on top of all these… the store is busy.. so it makes a very tiring day for me.
I just wished i had more energy.. everyone who comes into the store.. just wannna stay and chat.. about something.. and then chloe would fuss even more.. because she feels left out. Or when i try feeding her.. and getting her to nap.. and inconsiderate customers would come and talk loudly to you .. or make alot of noise.. that really frustrates me. I wished i could tell them to go away.. and not take up too much of my time.. i have no time to hear stories about their life.. and wat their mother do or does.. or when their mother move or watever.. it’s too trivial.. and i have no time for small talk for those especially i don’t care for. And ppl who invite themselves into chloe’s area.. and not take off their shoes.. so .. so inconsiderate.. i sometimes just wanna scream at them.. and tell them to please think for chloe first.. afterall.. i really don’t need for them to visit us .. when we are at the store.. the store is for business.. and if they have no business.. they shouldn’t even come in… especially wrong timing and plus i still got my hives.. so you can imagine how uncomfy i was. I could smack them sometimes.
Anyhow.. we hired someone new today.. and i am hoping she would work out… coz’ i dont’ wanna lose a friend in her.. We are gonna try to be really, really patient with this new staff.
Keeping my fingers crossed .. all of my fingers i mean.. so you see how desperado i am..??!!??

My baby Chloe has got a bad temper. I was trying to feed her today .. and boy was she upset or mad.. so mad.. that she was clenching her fists and mouth and face. I am hoping she is not gonna turn out to be one of those uncontrollable kid that we have once in a while in the store.
I wonder if there is something we can do.. or is there a problem with her behaviour that she will not outgrow when she is older? i hope not.. but i used to say.. that my kid ain’t gonna misbehave like some kids we see in the store.